[00:12.33]Even in joy I watch the edge
[00:18.23]My heart still grips a broken pledge
[00:23.28]I plan for storms in sunlit days—
[00:29.12]And brace for loss in love’s soft praise
[00:35.72]The calm feels fake the peace a trick
[00:41.54]I scan the room for something quick
[00:46.71]I’ve learned to never fully rest—
[00:52.32]For safety’s just a passing guest
[00:58.46]But not all good must end in pain
[01:04.01]Not every smile is linked to rain
[01:10.14]And trust can grow in soil slow—
[01:15.95]If watered with a gentle “no ”
[01:22.65]So if I flinch when nothing’s near
[01:28.37]It’s not your fault—it’s just old fear
[01:33.84]I’m trying now to stay inside—
[01:39.63]A world where I don’t have to hide